If I feel the need to act or to speak in a group, I must check this for the intention what is lurking behind. I have tried to say that my desire is to help those people. Or to show the broader group a better way. Or to enlighten then in their errors.

Yet I lie to myself. I keep hidden the reality that I want to be seen. I want to be praised. I want to be recognized.

I am selfish. And nothing for God comes from me looking at myself.

If I really want to help others, I will be willing to not be seen. Willing to be forgotten. Willing to be overlooked. So that Christ is seen. All eyes must be in Him. All ears listening to His words.

Not mine.